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Tony Awards (1990) - City of Angels

Can You Validate My "Pretty Parking" Please?

I thought about my wanting to model at the ripe old age of 36, which is approximately 109 years in the modeling world. Do I need strangers to validate that I'm pretty? In a way, yes. I know my friends think I'm beautiful, but they know me and love me even in sweats! They are biased and I love them to pieces for it! When I was younger, I always felt that I was in my sister's shadow. She was the blonde with a great rack and I was the gawky brunette with no rack. She got all the guys and I was a total Theatre/Music freak! It took me years to come to peace with my body. I still have my bad "I hate everything about my body" days, but overall, I am happy with myself. I love being in front of the camera-moving or still and while some may think I'm too old for this business, it's a passion of mine and as long as the photogs and directors want to cast me, I will pursue my passion! It's not about getting paid. I haven't done a paid shoot in about a million years. Doing these shoots makes me feel powerful and I know I'm a good model to work with. I know how to find the light, my best angles, and I take direction well. If you join my Facebook fan page https://www.facebook.com/pages/JA-Hellz-Kittehn/202039416508619 you will see that I have many close up head shots. Those are all pictures I took of myself. I also have some awesome shots that my momma took of me and some that my wonderful man, Jeremy, took of me. The pin-up modeling pictures are courtesy of Rob Tolzien and he is so amazing to work with. My experience in acting, singing, dancing, and a bit of modeling have helped me explore my life. A very dear mentor of my mine once told me, "find your bliss" and that is exactly what I am doing. My momma just wanted happiness for me and I intend to honor her by pursuing happiness and bliss. So, in conclusion, yes, there is definitely a part of me that wants my pretty parking to be validated. I don't think it makes me shallow or insecure. It makes me feel good and in control of my happiness.

All the best,

Hellz ;)

Bend Me, Shape Me, Anyway You Want To....

I'm pleased by the response I have gotten on MM and FB. I'm in cahoots with several photogs and an F/X artist! I'm hoping to procure a sewing machine soon as I now have a gorgeous corset pattern and I'm ready to make my own. I've been sewing since I was a kid. My beloved momma taught me how to sew when I was about 6 or so. She made and/or fixed most of my clothes until I was a teen and it became cheaper to buy clothes. However, anything that needed to have that extra special something, she helped me with. I'm currently unemployed, but it does give me time to book shoots whenever I'm needed. I'm hoping to have a job soon, but it's tough out there and now with the debt crisis looming over America, I fear that my search will only become more difficult. Right now I'm watching the rain fall softly on the lake outside my bedroom window. It's so peaceful and beautiful. I love going out onto my balcony and watching the sunset. I'm also in the market for a camera to do more self portraits. I have so many thoughts racing in my head about my future. I miss my mom. She passed away February 17th from Ovarian cancer. You will see me post more about OC in the future. I finally met the love of my life and he has helped me navigate through this difficult time. I have great friends who have become family to me. I'm proud to call PinupMama my friend. She is so wonderfully supportive and that's hard to come by in the modeling business! Well, it's time for me to tend to my home.

All the best,

Hellz ;)

HELLZ IN LOVE!!!

  

Hellz in HELL!!!

Today started off with a very hot and tired kittehn. This heatwave can wave on outta here any day now! A lil bit about me-I have horrible luck! I just moved into a condo or rather a money pit! Of course, the condo was in perfect shape and on its best behavior when the inspector was here! The A/C went out late last night and I had unrealistic fantasies about it magically working in the morning! A million and two calls later, I finally found someone to come and fix it! I feel luck because he got here before we hit the triple digits and yes everything is exclamatory right now! I just ordered my (gulp) expensive new tires for my car and paid all my bills. Now, I'm ready to cut up some material in the hopes of creating...something. I have my eye on a sewing machine. For now, I'm going to sew by hand! Fortunately, I do have a couple of shoots coming up! That keeps me a bit sane. Just a bit....

Pin Me Up!

When I was younger, I wanted to be a model/actress. I was 16 when I got my first callbacks from 3 major agencies. What did I do? I got free tickets for a musical, City of Angels, and I went to that instead! I will never regret that decision because I was too young and naive to pursue modeling at that time. Also, the musical made me realize how much I loved and still love Theatre! My dream job? Draped over a grand piano in a slinky dress singing torch songs and Pin-Up modeling on the side! I have found more support than I expected and from unexpected sources. I'm currently working on more pin-up shoots and am starting to design pin-up costumes that can be both practical and wildly sensual! I hope you enjoy following my wins and losses throughout this new adventure!

All the best,


Hellz ;)