Can You Validate My "Pretty Parking" Please?

I thought about my wanting to model at the ripe old age of 36, which is approximately 109 years in the modeling world. Do I need strangers to validate that I'm pretty? In a way, yes. I know my friends think I'm beautiful, but they know me and love me even in sweats! They are biased and I love them to pieces for it! When I was younger, I always felt that I was in my sister's shadow. She was the blonde with a great rack and I was the gawky brunette with no rack. She got all the guys and I was a total Theatre/Music freak! It took me years to come to peace with my body. I still have my bad "I hate everything about my body" days, but overall, I am happy with myself. I love being in front of the camera-moving or still and while some may think I'm too old for this business, it's a passion of mine and as long as the photogs and directors want to cast me, I will pursue my passion! It's not about getting paid. I haven't done a paid shoot in about a million years. Doing these shoots makes me feel powerful and I know I'm a good model to work with. I know how to find the light, my best angles, and I take direction well. If you join my Facebook fan page https://www.facebook.com/pages/JA-Hellz-Kittehn/202039416508619 you will see that I have many close up head shots. Those are all pictures I took of myself. I also have some awesome shots that my momma took of me and some that my wonderful man, Jeremy, took of me. The pin-up modeling pictures are courtesy of Rob Tolzien and he is so amazing to work with. My experience in acting, singing, dancing, and a bit of modeling have helped me explore my life. A very dear mentor of my mine once told me, "find your bliss" and that is exactly what I am doing. My momma just wanted happiness for me and I intend to honor her by pursuing happiness and bliss. So, in conclusion, yes, there is definitely a part of me that wants my pretty parking to be validated. I don't think it makes me shallow or insecure. It makes me feel good and in control of my happiness.

All the best,

Hellz ;)